hmm..i was gonna share this durin "sharing time" dis past saturday durin fellowship..but for some reason i decided against it..iono..its just hard for me to say i guess..
well, this past year has really been awkward..like a roller-coaster..lotsa good times, but den again, theres always da bad times..its been tough; i cant deny that..but wut im tryin to say is that im just really thankful for my frends..alla them..my skool frends, my church frends, my close frends, mere acquaintances, close frends who became acquaintances and vice versa..just, everyone..and if ur readin this, then this list probably includes you too..this year has just been so weird..so much stuff happening..and at da same time..i just wish i could go back in time..back to last thanksgiving, or last christmas, or just da beginning of da skool year..and just start all over again..do things rite..set things straight..not make the same mistakes..learn from this year's experiences..things were perfect last year..well, or so i thought, well, comparatively speaking of course..agh i dont really see how i screwed things up so badly..to such a horrible extent..but, wen i think back on how much ive depended on all my frends, and how close some of my frendships used to be..i cant help it, but a lump forms in my throat, and sometimes i can actually feel tears forming in my eyes; its just too depressing to think about how much things have just been turned around..almost directly opposite from da way they used to be..well, this is all i can say rite now, cuz i still hafta study for a make-up physics quiz tomorrow..but now i guess i kno why i didnt share this on saturday..i was just too scared to stand up in front of everyone..cuz i kno for a fact that i would be unable to look at anyone straight in the eye..

*sigh* ill continue this later..