control freaks
we're all control freaks. we dillydally here and there, trying to keep our lives as busy as possible while maintaining this magical composure that hopefully says, "hey look at me, i've got it all together." no matter what we're feeling inside, whether it's incredible sadness or insurmountable grief, we keep this plastic smile on our mr and mrs potato head faces. we like to make life look easy and simple, and above all, under control.

i think that's why stuff like natural disasters cause so much distress. i mean, of course, aside from the fact of their sheer power, it's the fact that we are rendered so indescribably helpless. especially in this case, when it's not an all-of-a-sudden-pop-up-out-of-nowhere thing, but a gradually approaching monster of a storm that we have no way of preventing. it's at times like these when we realize that we truly aren't in control -- at all.

There is no use worrying about things over which you have no control, and if you have control, you can do something about them instead of worrying.
- Stanley C. Allyn

God is bigger than ALL of this. how unbelievably mind-boggling is that?