i'm a foolish boy. whenever stuff really goes wrong, i tend to doubt God's goodness. i don't mean to, but it just happens. i mean everybody loves a scapegoat, right? well it's not that i really blame Him, i just sorta question His wisdom. yeah i know it sounds silly just saying it. me? questioning God's wisdom? that's as crazy as it gets, but that's how it ends up playing out. more or less, i ask Him, "are You doing Your job up there?" then He teaches me something absolutely amazing through the hardship that could not have been possible beforehand. sometimes it's something about myself that i never saw before. sometimes it's a new side of Him that i've never even considered. most of the time it's a combination of both. then i question why i ever doubt His goodness at all. i'm a foolish boy.