a lot has happened in the past few days. some things seem monumental, others trivial, but in the end, i get the feeling that i'm supposed to learn something from it all.
i watched saw II on sunday night after getting back to austin. it's funny, but instead of just freaking the crap out of me, that movie really got my brain working. there was this specific quote in there that has just stuck with me. the "bad guy" is talking to the police detective about how if he told him the exact day and time of his impending death, it would "shatter his world." he goes on to say:
but what if i knew i was going to leave this world in 2 days. in 2 weeks? in 2 months? in 2 years? how would that change how i acted? unfortunately, it would change everything.
maybe that's exactly what i need. i need that reminder that i'm not here on this earth just to dillydally and have a nice vacation.
this past weekend has really helped me put a lot of things into perspective. i guess more than anything i want that sense of urgency in my life. i don't want to keepp putting stuff off like evangelizing, while all the while i'm getting sucked further and further into the center of the Christian bubble. it's time to stop making excuses and trying to justify my lack of initiative.
funny how God can use anything to speak to You and get you to open your eyes, isn't it?
i watched saw II on sunday night after getting back to austin. it's funny, but instead of just freaking the crap out of me, that movie really got my brain working. there was this specific quote in there that has just stuck with me. the "bad guy" is talking to the police detective about how if he told him the exact day and time of his impending death, it would "shatter his world." he goes on to say:
...but most people have the luxury of not knowing when that clock is gonna go off, and the irony of it is that it keeps them from really living their life -- it keeps them drinking that glass of water, but never really tasting it.you ever get the feeling that you're just invincible? i do. like you're so young and full of life that death is one of the last things that would ever cross your mind? well, i'm not advocating a morbid state of mind here, but i think sometimes this way of thinking forces me to procrastinate like crazy. "there's always tomorrow," i keep telling myself.
but what if i knew i was going to leave this world in 2 days. in 2 weeks? in 2 months? in 2 years? how would that change how i acted? unfortunately, it would change everything.
maybe that's exactly what i need. i need that reminder that i'm not here on this earth just to dillydally and have a nice vacation.
this past weekend has really helped me put a lot of things into perspective. i guess more than anything i want that sense of urgency in my life. i don't want to keepp putting stuff off like evangelizing, while all the while i'm getting sucked further and further into the center of the Christian bubble. it's time to stop making excuses and trying to justify my lack of initiative.
funny how God can use anything to speak to You and get you to open your eyes, isn't it?
