my greatest fears

i promised someone i would do this, so here goes (not in any particular order, just the order that they popped into my head):

1. cockroaches
2. falling off a cliff
3. getting stabbed
4. plane crash
5. clowns

there will be more categories to come, but right now, i have a LOT of work to do.

desperate times call for desperate measures, so i am about to do the unthinkable..

..study at the PCL on a beautiful saturday afternoon. oh woe is me.

west side

after checking my email for 20 minutes and vigorously clicking "refresh" for my inbox because johanna said that was where i could check my room assignment for next year..

chopstickwok: room?
mok says: i dont know where to check it
chopstickwok: mail box
chopstickwok: real mailbox
mok says: FREAKING.

peter and i are currently planning on staying in jester west room 500 next year. there could be a possible change. thank you for your time.

mok says: when i get rich and famous
mok says: and if you're out of a job
mok says: i'll hire you as a secretary
ladyroo786: hahaha, thanks mok, good to kno i have a fallback position if the whole making lots of money as a pharmacist thing doesn't work out
mok says: no problem dawg
mok says: i got yo back
ladyroo786: what're u gna get rich and famous doing?
mok says: m..
mok says: kissing booth.
ladyroo786: haha, that's ambitious of you
mok says: not ambitious.
mok says: more like practical.
ladyroo786: lol, using your strengths, huh?
mok says: no doubt

happiepenguin: i hate you
happiepenguin: ok
happiepenguin: ttyl
happiepenguin: miss you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i thought i posted this a couple days ago, but i guess not.

anyways, you guessed it. im either too lazy to write a real entry or i simply don't have anything to talk about right now.

or maybe it's a bit of both.

not all fun and games

i remember the first time i saw someone using crutches. i was amazed because it just looked THAT cool. now that i have had my first and hopefully only opportunity to have to stumble around 3 legs at a time, i must say this: CRUTCHES SUCK.

at 3:10, i went to cypress bend to eat lunch with johanna, but when i got there, she THEN told me that she had a class at 3:30. what the heck. does anyone think that this might be useful information to know BEFOREHAND? but anyways, so somehow i am persuaded to go to class with her to eat my spaghetti. after getting the food, we walk across the street to the forty acres bus stop, and a few moments later, a bus pulled up.

the bus was PACKED. hardly anyone got off the bus, but there was a bunch of people waiting to board. i hop onto the front entrance, and unfortunately, the bus driver was a very compassionate lady. oh, and stubborn too.

she started telling people to give me a seat. i told her that it was ok, that i was only going to get off at the next stop anyways, but she wouldn't hear any of it. she parked the bus, got out of her seat, and told some guy to let me have his seat. i look to the back of the bus, and there's 320984580239 sets of eyes on me. and then i see oliver, and he's just laughing. i actually found it pretty funny too. and apparently so did johanna. so i shake my head, make my way to the empty seat, and sit down with a sigh.

then the entire time til the next bus stop a few hundred yards away, johanna's laugh is heard echoing throughout the bus. well, im glad she found the situation so humorous.

so no more crutches for me. i'd rather limp or even crawl around campus than have to do that hardcore triceps workout.

the small things in life

my alarm went off. i sat up. i stood up. i sat back down. my left ankle hurt like a mofo. as i went through my morning routine, i learned to appreciate the small things in life.

you know, stuff like being able to step in and out of the shower with comfort. or being able to put on your pants without lying down on the floor. or being able to slide my shoes on without having to plop down on my bed. it's kinda strange how important a single ankle can be. not being able to put any pressure on it sure does limit your actions.

i had a quiz in TD301, so i hobbled down to the jester classroom and sat down. after taking the quiz, i hopped onto a forty acres bus while calling university health service to set up an appointment. i sat in the waiting room for about an hour. then i finally got called in to another room, where i waited for another hour. then i was rolled in a wheelchair into another room for x-rays. after those were taken, i waited for yet another hour. does anyone else notice a pattern here?

luckily, nothing was broken, so praise God for that. just a serious sprained ankle, and the doctor said that i wouldn't be on the basketball courts for another 3 weeks..

..but i'll see about that ;) anyhow, ended up missing all my classes today because of the stupid appointment, but it's all good.

oh and i almost forgot to share about my favoritest part of the day. at about 8:00, there was a fire drill!! yay!! and i was in my room on the 8th floor!! yay!! and i couldn't use the elevators!! yay!!

so yes, i had a blast hopping down 8 flights of stairs. ah, what perfect timing. hoorah!

holy crip, it's a crapple!

i just called the university health services desk, trying to see if i could set up a free apointment thing for my ankle, but lo and behold, they were closed. what terrible service.

anyhow, i thought the intro to their voicemail was incredibly hilarious. maybe im just an idiot..

University health services is closed at this time. If you have a life-threatening medical emergency, hang up and call 911.

does anyone else find that absolutely jumping-off-the-walls-funny?

ok don't reply if the answer is no.

anyways, right now i can barely put any pressure on my left ankle, so im probably gonna borrow a set of crutches from anna tomorrow night. so if you see a bald asian guy limping around campus tomorrow, it's not a wannabe A-Z-N trying to strut. it's your friendly neighborhood superhero. i mean super cripple. i mean gimpy.

si m e 0nkwn: you alright?
mok says: haha not at the moment
mok says: im crippled
si m e 0nkwn: aww
si m e 0nkwn: you gonna be in class baby?
mok says: haha
mok says: most definitely
mok says: i wouldnt miss seeing you for the world, simeon.
si m e 0nkwn: haha
si m e 0nkwn: good
si m e 0nkwn: see you then baby
si m e 0nkwn: good night jonathan
mok says: night hunnie buns

any given sunday

worry. it's such an interesting concept when you think about it. why do people do it? what good does it really do?

i'll admit it. i've spent my share of time worrying about this and that, wondering about all the "what if's" and "remember when's" in life. why did i do that? what was i thinking? how could she have treated me like that?

when it all boils down to it, worrying about the past is useless. in Jesus's words, "who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?"

unfortunately, i have also been known to be a worry warrior when it comes to the unknown future. what college will i go to? what if i fail that big test tomorrow? what if i never decide on a major?

i used to snicker when i was a little kid whenever someone in the Bible was referred as as "O you of little faith!" i thought to myself, "how could these people not have full trust in God, this same God that has always been faithful and just in the past?"

and yet here i am, sitting here worrying about such insignificant things.

today pastor gideon gave a message on worrying. it definitely hit home for me. it was so humbling to finally realize that worrying in and of itself is basically a statement to God saying that i don't have full trust in Him. sad, isn't it? He's the Creator of the universe, and yet i can't entirely trust Him to help me do my best on a government midterm.

anyhow, my weekend has just been awesome. let's see, friday night after watching some horrid play that was required for TD301, i watched simon birch with some other freshmen + andy yu at san jac.

saturday woke up at 3:30 and had lunch at chipotle with titus, albert, derek, and elise. then hung out at titus's place until cbs talent show. *sigh if for whatever reason you couldn't make it to remix, im sorry to tell you this, but you missed out. big time. start praying and asking God to rewind time back to yesterday so you could be there. all the acts were simply incredible. i am still amazed. afterwards, a group of 23 freshmen + andy yu (dejavu?) headed over to kirby lane, where we enjoyed a nice meal together outside on the deck.

now onto today. after church, titus, albert, derek, elise, and i headed over to EZ's, where we met up with meson, patty, stephanie, and a couple other people. following lunch and a quick nap, i walked over to gregory for my intramural game against the STUBS. i sat out for the first 5 minutes, but then on the 3rd play of the game that i was on the court, i stepped on timmy's foot while going full speed and rolled my ankle. i sat out for the remainder of the 1st half and decided to go back in at halftime. i laced up my shoes extra tight to support my ankle, but i still couldn't shoot jumpshots on it.

long story short, i played terrible, and with 10 seconds left, simon hit the game-winning shot for the STUBS. what a punk. haha but a big thanks to everyone who came to watch the game =) you guys are the best! sorry i did so bad, but when it comes to basketball, i really don't have any self-control. i guess in retrospect, i shouldn't have played on my ankle at all, but hey, it's all good. it was still a good game, right?

anyways, next game is the important one. whoever wins next week will get the final playoff spot for the CBS league. oh, the pressure =P

so presently i am sitting in front of my computer, nearly crippled because of my left ankle. i have NEVER hurt my ankle this bad. dang, i guess im not wolverine after all =(