you never know..

so it turns out, on valentine's weekend, jon-erik shared his testimony during FOCUS service. i downloaded it a couple of days ago off of the fbcc website, and dude, it brought more tears to my eyes than love actually.

it's funny how everything works out in the end. haha come to think of it, i don't even remember how exactly me and JE met. i DO remember being in the same world geography class with mrs. schroeder. *sigh what an awesome class. i guess we got closer the next year in mr. torano's spanish 3 class. haha we would arm-wrestle just about every day, just for pride of course. haha junior year...i don't really remember anything at all. but senior year, the highlight had to be mcgee's class with JE and lots of other cool people. as i started to get to know jon-erik more, i begun to invite him to come to fellowship with me. most of the time, he just rejected my innocent offer, so i had no choice but to punch him in the face.

ok just kidding. but yeah, i guess it was pretty discouraging being turned down so many times, but now in retrospect, im so glad i didn't stop asking. senior year there was this conference in houston called dare 2 share. this conference was basically all about sharing the Good News with friends and family.

i left D2S pumped up. like, crazy pumped. and among the first people to come to my mind was jon-erik. so a couple nights later, i was talking to him online, and i just casually asked him what he thought about Christianity. that simple question opened the doors to a 3-hour conversation on his views, my views, and just about everything in between.

we decided to follow up the conversation with a meal at la madeleine's, and i gave him a couple of books that john lin suggested. but from that point on, i heard nothing from JE on the subject until, all of a sudden, he started going to church every sunday! it was definitely awesome seeing him there, and lo and behold, just a couple of months ago, he accepted Christ!

this just goes to show that God can use anyone to do work for His kingdom. heck, He even used me. don't give up.

if you wanna hear jon-erik's testimony, go here.

confident vs. cocky

'tis one of the biggest mysteries of life. what is the difference between being confident and being cocky. or, better yet, as many ask, IS there a difference at all?

well, of course there is a difference. to be confident means to be marked by assurance, as of success. on the other hand, to be cocky means to be overly self-assertive.

of course, society has made "confidence" the most important aspect of a person's character. job recruiters desperately seek "confident" people. girls look for "confident" guys.

so where do i stand on this? i actually have no idea. i have been told that i am both confident and cocky. does that make sense?

so where lies this fine line between confidence and cockiness?

*yawn i don't know anymore. im going to sleep.

sorry to end on such an anticlimactic note.

2 down, 1 to go.

man, a paid vacation sure sounds nice right now.

stayed up all night studying with titus yesterday. well, other people were there too, but they folded out early. johanna left at 2:30? angela at 3? jason at 4? emily at 4:30? tim at 5?

haha whatever, time kinda loses all sense of fluidity when you're tired.

had an awesome time of fellowship talking about stuff like "what's the worst thing you've ever done." oOoo rebellious. anyways, don't mess with johanna. she's done some bad stuff. what a rebel.

ok you want the good news first? or the bad news?

well, too bad, whatever you wanted. i get to decide.

bad news: MY COMPUTER IS STILL BROKEN. yay.

good news: I FOUND OUT MY AIM PASSWORD!! I'VE BEEN TRYING TO FIGURE IT OUT FOR THE PAST 2 DAYS!! yipee.

ok 2 more tests this week. wish me luck.

oh, and can someone fix my computer? i think i need a new hard drive. doh.

my computer is broken.

im currently at the PCL, studying my butt off.

you probably won't hear from me until at least saturday, but possibly later since im not entirely sure what happened to my computer.

anyways, have a good week.

it shouldn't SUCK to be single on valentine's day

that's what a poster said in the san jac lobby.

single. why does that word carry so much negative connotation nowadays? when did the word come to signify loneliness and incompletion? why can't the world find contentment in being single?

don't get me wrong. im not hating on valentine's day or anything. no way. in fact, it's just the opposite. i love how there's a special day especially set apart for people to show their love to people they care about.

im just confused at why more people don't feel satisfied with their singleness. being single doesn't mean that you live every day moping and wishing that you had a significant other in your life..

..or, at least it shouldn't.

as for me, valentine's day turned out to be an awesome opportunity to work together with other freshman guys to show our appreciation for the girls. not a single second of yesterday was spent feeling miserable for not having a girlfriend or whatever, because in all seriousness, there's no sense behind it.

woah, slow down there, mok. what do you mean? you didn't even feel a bit of dejection on the day also known as singles awareness day?

for those of you asking this question, this might be a shocker -- i enjoy being single. at this point in my life, i couldn't picture a better situation.

first of all, i know im not ready, both emotionally and spiritually. i want to be a godly man, fully secure in my faith and able to guard my girlfriend's heart, mind, and body.

more importantly, i know that God will provide when the timing is best. and trust me when i say that God's timing is always perfect.

so if you are also single, just take this time to grow closer to God and become the man or woman God wants you to be.

a couple sundays ago, pastor gideon said, "i don't know what you've been looking [to], who you've been looking to, what you've been looking to, to find completeness and wholeness and satisfaction, and Jesus says 'come to me; if any one is thirsty, let him come to me to drink.'"

don't look to the opposite sex to complete yourself. look to God.

mok says: you hear about a rod?
mok says: A-rod?
Simy85: yeah
Simy85: u hear about francis
mok says: ?!?
mok says: what
Simy85: ohno
Simy85: he just sucks
Simy85: haha
mok says: HAHAHAHA
mok says: danget.
Simy85: but there are a lotta trade rumors
mok says: don't get me excited like that
Simy85: hahah
mok says: i thought he got traded

mok says: OH and then watched love actually at the union
cubbykirby: ooooo
mok says: ah..
cubbykirby: what night did u go on?
mok says: good movie
mok says: yesterday at 10
cubbykirby: it was ur first time?
mok says: nono
mok says: 2nd
cubbykirby: w/ the fish and soph girls?
cubbykirby: yea...i like that movie
mok says: but ive been wanting to watch it again sooo bad
mok says: wait..
mok says: the girls went?
cubbykirby: yea
mok says: hm..
cubbykirby: it was a fish/soph movie night or something
mok says: haha i went with..
cubbykirby: GIRL movie night
mok says: oh..
mok says: psh.
mok says: i wasn't invited.
cubbykirby: hahah
mok says: what the heck
cubbykirby: it was for GIRLS that's y
mok says: yeah ok
mok says: haters.
cubbykirby: hahha
cubbykirby: it was for female bonding though
mok says: mhm
cubbykirby: the soph girls always plan events w/ us for some reason
mok says: female bonding or male hating
cubbykirby: both
mok says: -_-
cubbykirby: but we dont admit to the male hating

cubbykirby: i'm a child molestor.